When everything seems to fall into place

When you think everything's started to fall into place you find out how much you have struggled to make it happen. It's not natural, not meant to be. Do you really need it that badly? I'm afraid I might just do...

And WTF?!?

Yes, that's it. We are led to believe that our life is happening right now, that we have to enjoy every second of it because we grow old too fast. But it is not possible to buy a house to live in because we've got no money. It's not possible to ask for a bank loan because we've got no money and the interests rate would sum up to three times the value of the house. It's a matter of being lucky to get a house in an investidor's group... So What The Fuck are we supposed to do? Just keep waiting for this wonderful life to begin? I'm sick and tired of it all. Fuck it, I'll drink some wine and whine.

Same Old Same

Maybe I'm the same old me. Maybe I never had the chance (or never took it) to develop my maturity. Or maybe life is more diffuclt nowadays than it used to be.

Anyway, I just feel terribly depressed. I can't even enjoy simple pleasures in life, like eating or cooking or watching a good film with butter popcorn. I feel I must do something, but I just can't. It is not in my hands, it is not my call.

I wish I could feel better. I wish I could solve it. I know life's got its challenges, and they are good because they make us stronger. But what happens when the pressure is too overwhelming?